There is something to be said about getting back to your roots and grounding yourself in nature. I never thought that working on the farm this summer would change me in ways I could never imagine. Looking back that day back in April when I messaged my now boss in response to her Facebook post about wanting to hire someone who could help with their CSA Summer program I never knew what my life was missing but in working on the farm. I have gained so much insight on who I am, who I was and who I want to become.
I don’t fit into any mold, I have finally learned that. I am me unique in every way. For so long, I have tried to fit the mold that people wanted me to be in. Like for instance, a few bloggers have told me that I shouldn’t write some of the posts I do, so I tried to change it up but then I felt fake and wasn’t being true to who I was. I got away from who I was trying to fit into who people think I should be and guess what that’s not me? Find your voice and use it. I used to respect those that wanted to give me advice (other bloggers) but then I started checking out their blogs and guess what those that have said that I shouldn’t write what I want don’t even write at all. I mean seriously folks would you take financial advice from a broke person or a successful person. I think I know the answer, the successful person is the one that will have my ear every time. And that is what is important, companies like to work with me not because I am like every other blogger out there but in that, I have a unique voice that is different from the rest of the cookie cutter bloggers. So, I am happy being me, but it has taken me a long time to come to this conclusion because as I have written before I wasn’t happy with the expectations that were placed on me by others. Instead, I just want to be me.
The second thing is that I love being outdoors and working with kids even though some kids can be extremely aggravating. I miss teaching but not so much that I want to go back to the school and start again. But I enjoy interacting with the people and I love the people at work. I haven’t had a better boss than Emily and JR, they treat us all with respect and are very easy going and laid back. And the group I work with are awesome. Of course, I have known one of them for a while as she worked with both of my older girls.
In going back to work outside of the home, and working on the farm, I have found myself. I am centered and grounded. I have a life that I love and I am learning to like me again.