This month is Women’s History Month so each day I will be sharing either about an event that women are holding, a woman-owned business, reintroducing you to my girls ( they each get a separate post) and also giving you a brief glimpse of the women I admire.
Yesterday, I shared four amazing bloggers with you in an effort to create a more positive image for women. In that post, I wrote that some of the bloggers that participated wrote a book. ( Well not really a book) but still, they were so heartfelt that if I cut their stories down then I would be defeating the purpose of having them tell their stories. So instead of cutting them down, I decided they deserved a post of their own. So today’s post is one of those. I am proud to introduce you to my friend Hannah from The Hannah Hardy. So here is her story.
The reason is love this picture so much is lengthy, but I wanted to be honest and share my truth. There are so many reasons why I love this picture, but the main one is it represents happiness. I am happiest when I’m snuggled up on my couch with my puppy. In this picture, I don’t have my contacts in, I’m wearing my pajamas, and I have on no makeup. I’ve struggled with self-worth, self-doubt, and battled anxiety and depression. I’ve looked in the mirror and hated what I saw and who I was more times than I care to share. It took a long time for me to learn to love me and thanks to Jesus and the love of this puppy, I finally realized that I am enough. I still have my days of doubt, but at the end of the day I know I am enough because of Jesus. He died for me before he even knew me and that right there is enough to pull me out of any funk.
Everyone that knows me knows that my dog, a peekapoo, named Windsor is my whole world. He is not just a dog to me. He is my baby and my best friend. He is 6 years old and the light of my life. He is always happy to see me, he has dried my tears, he has been confident, my companinion, my joy, and he saved my life. When my depression was really bad, I almost ended my life. However, I saw his sweet little face looking up at me and knew I couldn’t do it. He needed me and counted on me to take care of him and even though I was hurting so bad, I couldn’t handle the thought of leaving him. This took place in April 2014 and I’ve never looked back. That day was a turning point for me, in my life and my relationship with Jesus. I promised myself that I would never let myself go to that dark place again and I’ve kept my word.
The next day, I picked up my Bible and dove in. I started doing daily devotions and learning and soaking up every bit of God’s word. I learned that I matter, that I am enough, that I am loved, I am wanted, and I have a purpose. I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, I don’t know what I’m doing half the time, and I make mistakes and fall short daily, but I know all of those things are ok because HE is on my side. As long as I keep my faith and trust in Him, I’ll be just fine.
The road was long, but I stayed the course and I’m happy. My happy place is still at home snuggled up with Windsor. As I said earlier, I still have my moments, but I’ve come so far. I make a decision each to day to be better, to do better, and not go back to that dark place of 2014. I have an amazing family, the best friends, the love of my pups, a job I enjoy with coworkers that are wonderful, and a strong relationship Jesus. My days and heart are full. All that’s missing is a Birkin 😉